It's been a while since I've written. Mainly because I didn't have anything positive to say. Granted I have posted nearly every day this summer to keep family updated on our crazy life and the MESS.
This week has actually been the easiest week since Andrew went to heaven to be with Jesus. The last two and a half months are starting to look like a blur. I find that a little annoying, since as painful as it has been, I don't want to forget anything. So I'm choosing not to forget, but to move forward. It's all I know to do. I know that God will use this as an opportunity to minister to other women. I know His word says that what satan meant for evil, God meant for good. So I am choosing to believe that good will come from losing our baby. Andrew has forever changed us and we won't ever forget how deeply he touched our lives.
Today I picked up his pictures from the hospital. It was the one last thing I needed in order to move forward. I also took a gift to my two nurses that took care of me while we were there. They were wonderful. Until you go thru something as awful as losing a baby, you never realize just how hard their job is. It really blessed me to see how touched the one nurse was by my gift. Definitely a good ending to a bad couple of months!
Monday I officially start back to work for the school year. I am excited to meet all my new students. I am also looking forward to the distractions that will keep me from dwelling on how much I miss my baby. And much like my new motto of moving forward our kids are moving forward as well. They will be attending a new school. All three of them, together! That is a first! I'm sad and excited at the same time. Matt is going to be in sixth grade. Ella will be in fourth grade. And my little Sam, who is a character all in his own way, will be a kindergartner. I just don't know where time goes. But we are all excited for the new school year!
Moving forward is so so very hard, but necessary. So with that said, here's to a new "year".
